a special occastion

today is a special someone's birthday!
duuuuuuude you're sooo old!
2 decades! daaaamn!
well anyway happy birthday.
i hope you're dreams come true and make new friends and keep the old..
since you are old :Pp
happy birthday mumum.. 5la9 that means enna mako present.. ;P

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just testing my letters :Pp

pressure

I feel as if I'm about to explode from this...thing.
I don't know what I want, but what I do know is that I don't want this.
This is too much for me; I can't carry all this weight. My shoulders can't carry all this
I don't know what to do... but I want to do the right thing and I don't know what it is.
You expect me to be perfect that I will do everything with a big smile on my face.
I can't, because I don't know how.
Tell me what to do...don't tell me what you want and not tell me how.
You think it's easy but it's not! Everything is changing, everyone is changing. Including me!
I'm changing I'm not the same person I was a year ago. I'm not capable of doing the things that I did that time, I might be able to do more than that, or maybe I can't at all, I don't know...
all I'm asking from you is to accept me the way I am and hope that I can do everything that you want, I can't guarantee that I can but I will try to make you proud of me.
You're showing me how I could turn out to be in both ways. In a good way, or
the bad way!
And with you doing that you're putting more pressure on me on all of us!
What I'm trying to say is that I want you to give me some space to figure things out and hope for the best.

hell on earth

this past week has been hell for me!
i have never felt so much hatred toward one person!
and it's not over... tomorrow only a part of it will be over
god help me... i just hope i don't stab said person with a pen by the end of the week.
well i'll keep you posted on my week from hell!

end of an era

hey wazup? been a while since i last posted.. but here's something new that i wrote..

The day was warm and the sun was shining bright as it dried everything within its reach from the previous rainy days. And when the land went dry, our eyes and hearts began to rain with sadness and grief from its loss…our father, our leader, our anchor and our guardian perished peacefully, as the sun was rising from the horizon. Leaving behind an army of mourners crying out with emotional pain so intense that could be mistaken for physical pain.
Even though you’re soul is no longer with us, your memory will always be remembered, never to be forgotten by the love and respect that you have received from others. For centuries your name will be remembered not only within history books, but also through stories from people’s memories of you.
We feel you’re presence around blooming flowers, the gentle wind and the falling rain that washes our pain and misery away.
We will feel you’re love and care along side you’re gentle beautiful spirit coursing through the seasons through eternity.
You have devoted your life to making this country what it is today, and it will not go unnoticed as the children become adults who will become doctors, lawyers and business owners.And all of that is because of your integrity you have made us who we are.
Because of your hard work you have made this country safe and beautiful.
And because of that we are all grateful for your generosity, and we feel honored to have had you as our leader.
We’ll miss you.