Things You Never Knew About Me..

ok here's a 100 things about me. i realize that i'm not the first to do this. i just read some and thought it might be fun. so here it goes..

1. My whole life revolves around my friends and family.
2. I think way too much.
3. I think I'm way too mature for my age.
4. I hate my smile.
5. I love my birthday.
6. Even though I have everything people would kill to have, I still feel lonely sometimes.
7. I never trust my instincts.
8. I'm still a cartoon addict.
9. I never leave the house without my iPOD.
10. I am the go-to person in the house when it concerns music.
11. I wish I live in a different kind of society.
12. I was born in England.
13. I have the worst handwriting.
14. I'm spoiled, but I'm not a brat.
15. I feel blessed that I have so many friends.
16. I am a gadget freak.
17. I am afraid of insects.
18. I love my dog.
19. I love NY.
20. I'm a quarter of an indian.
21. I still like Michael Jackson.
22. I'm very protective of my friends.
23. Music is my life.
24. I can't stay in one place for a long time because I get bored easily.
25. I consider myself a pack rat.
26. The last time I cried was 2 years ago.
27. I always judge a book by it's cover.
28. I hate eating in crowded restaurants.
29. I hate my hands.
30. I love rain.
31. I've never seen snow.
32. I love the beach.
33. I can't decide on something.
34. I wish I could have a pet lion.
35. My favorite name is Chris.
36. I am a huge superman fan.
37. I'm a daddy's girl.
38. I'm a chocoholic.
39. I always try to finish what I start.
40. I would do anything for my family.
41. I'm very shy.
42. I can't sleep in a car.
43. I love playing cards.
44. I love reading.
45. I dream of becoming a writer, but I don't think I'm good at it.
46. I rarely show my anger.
47. I don't have a laugh.
48. I'm too nice.
49. I can't say "no"
50. I'm the sarcastic one in the family.
51. When I think too hard I bite my lips.
52. I'm a good listener.
53. I'm a lefty.
54. I don't care what people think.
55. I'm patriotic
56. I care too much.
57. I bite my nails when I'm bored.
58. I have too many stuff.
59. I hate taking pictures of myself.
60. I'm opinionated.
61. I don't know how to lift an eyebrow.
62. I can't whistle.
63. I am very sarcastic when I'm angry.
64. I swear a lot.
65. I'm a daydreamer.
66. I wish I could live in a library.
67. I can't decide on a favorite color.
68. I'm very clumsy.
69. I have great reflexes.
70. My most said line is "bite me!"
71. I'm the forth of five children.
72. When I feel strongly about something, I get words mixed together.
73. I'm an introvert.
74. I rarely sleep on my back.
75. I was born on a Tuesday.
76. I don't snore.
77. I'm always online.
78. I love sports.
79. I'm so nice that it sometimes get me into trouble.
80. I can be a real bitch if I want to.
81. When I'm sleepy I laugh uncontrollably.
82. I'm the good girl in school.
83. I tripped on my own foot. TWICE!
84. I never broke a bone (7amdillah!)
85. I'm quiet in front of strangers, but you can't shut me up when I'm surrounded by people I know.
86. I love to travel.
87. I dream of going to Greece.
88. Everyday is a new experience.
89. I'm affectionate.
90. I've been called "om el badliyat" by everyone I know.
91. I express myself by writing.
92. I'm a follower.
93. I need my privacy.
94. I'm a teacher's pet.
95. I love teasing people.
96. I'm self-conscious about myself.
97. I always have a sarcastic remark up my sleeve.
98. My father calls me "his mishmisha" or "mishmishty" which is where my nick name comes from.
99. I'm allergic to mangoes, they're my favorite fruit.
100. I wanna be a kid again.

Don’t say I love you,
Don’t say you need me,
Don’t say I trust you,
My heart cant take it.
Don’t say you want me,
Don’t say you miss me,
Don’t hurt me.
Don’t say you love me.

The Other Side Of The Story (Part I)

I know you hated me the first time you read about me. I don't blame you. I hated me too. I was a home wrecker. I shouldn't have done what I did. So there's no point in trying to change what already happened.

It's just that I can't take all the blame for this. You need to read the other side of the story too.

So I guess we'll meet up again next week to read how it all began.
See you there.

The other woman,

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

The Results Are In!!

as some of you know.. me and FReX made a bet for the summer. if you don't know about it click here.

so anyway.. today is the first day of schoool :(
so we had to see the results:
MiSHMiSHa: 9 papers..
FReX: unknown.
according to her she said she "lost" 'em.
so i think it's obvious who the winner is.. MOI!!

you'd think we had about 2 months of free time, we would do some papers. but NOOOO all we did was sit around and bitch the whole day away doing nothing.

i guess this proves how much determination and ambition we have. this says alot, since we're the future. don't worry we'll keep this beloved country safe. if we're in the mood.

well i'm outa here.. latta's

Whether you're a brother or whether you're a mother,
you're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin' and everybody shakin',
and we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin' alive.

My Refuge.

Sitting in the corner of my room, where I consider it my refuge. I cry. Not knowing the reason for my falling tears. But they fall none the less, leaving a trail of fire on my face, across my cheeks, on my chin, and then falling on the ground.

I keep on crying for another half hour. Still not knowing why I'm even sitting in the far corner. Why am I hiding? Why do I feel ashamed?

I lift my head from my knee and look around. I suddenly feel distant. I stand up and lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling.

I'm tired. I'm really tired of it all. I tried so hard to be the daughter they've always wanted me to be. And some days I can't be myself so that I can make them happy. I've given up my dreams for them. I've done everything humanly possible to make them proud of me. But I guess it's normal if they're never satisfied with what I've done.

They think I'm happy. They see a totally different person. Now I remember the reason why I'm in here. They asked too much of me. They expected too much. And I couldn't do it. And I couldn't handle it anymore. I just had to get away from them.

This is my entire fault you know? I just can't bare hurting people's feelings, especially my parents. I just love making them happy. But sometimes they cross the line of sanity. They would expect the craziest things.

I lift me head from the pillow and listen. They're calling me. I wipe my eyes quickly and walk to the mirror, and check my eyes for any evidence of my earlier distress. I breathe deeply and exhale slowly. I try to smile, but it doesn't go all the way to my eyes, it never did. I turn and leave.

Everyday I sit at that corner and cry, Feeling miserable and lonely, while they go on with their daily routine. I'd cry for being something that I'm not, for being someone that I never wanted to be and who I wasn't. After I'd finish crying, I'd wish I could cry forever. For when I'm crying, I'm finally being myself. And I never wanted to be anything else.

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Who's The Lazy Ass NOW?

ok this is something that i drew a long time ago.. but lost it..
so i drew a new one with my favourite boo frex..

it's basically me not having anything to do.. so i did something totally stupid..
the only excuse i have is that i was seriously bored.. so don't judge..

ok the story is self-explanatory.. so enjoy and tell me what you think..

click to enlarge

This world is like a cage
And i don't think it's fair
And i don't even think
That anybody cares.

What The F*%$?!

so i downloaded a new template for my blog.. everything is going well.. i find the template that i want... well i found a couple of them..
then!! dumdumduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum! i get this:

We were unable to preview your template

Please correct the error below, and submit your template again.

Your template could not be parsed as it is not well-formed. Please make sure all XML elements are closed properly.
XML error message: The document type declaration for root element type "html" must end with '>'.

HUH?! what the hell does that mean?!
i've been trying to find out how to fix this "problem" but i can't!
i'm so frustrated! how the hell am i supposed to fix this thing?
is it because i use the beta thingy?
does it even have anything to do with beta?
or maybe it's because i'm hopeless..

i thought all you had to do was just copy and paste the codes and voila! you're done!
did anybody have this problem? and if YOU did, how did you solve it? if you did that is..

please help... :'(

UPDATE: it's official..i'm an idiot and thanks to mr. 3baid he made me see that.. thank you for solving my not so difficult dilemma.. you rock! thanks again ;P i didn't use the template that i wanted to use..it didn't look good.. i guess i'll keep looking..

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Dreaming...

Everything was perfect.
Nothing could ruin it.
I was happy.
I was content.
I felt safe.
I felt loved.
I thought I was special.
I never wanted it to end.
I felt complete.
It was beautiful.
It was something so unique, so special.
Then I realized that all good things are bound to end.
The sun light shines through the window and I wake up from my dream.

As your world spins around
Feet never touch the ground
Always hurting inside
Hiding behind the sun
waiting still for the love
but it all seems so right