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If I didn't ask you to stay, you would still be here. With us. And I wouldn't be here crying my heart out. I don't know if I could live without seeing you everyday, but I will. And I am. I still see you, in my dreams, in my thoughts.
I keep telling myself that this is a dream that suddenly turned into a nightmare without me noticing. How much I want it to be a dream, but I know it's real. I don't know how, but I just know.
Everyday I go down the stairs and I expect to see you there. And I ask myself where you are and then I remember that you're no longer there. That you will never be there again.
I feel so hollow and empty and I can't do anything without seeing something that reminds me of you, or hear something that you once said…
I feel like this is just another joke and next thing I know is you'll come over to me and tap my shoulder and say "gotcha!" Why are you not tapping my shoulder?!
You are. Were my best friend. The one that if I had any problems you would advise me on what to do. So tell me what I should do now that you're no longer here?
I feel like I've lost a part of me when you left. Everywhere I go, everything I see reminds me of you.
Because of you all I see is black and white. Because of you I feel incomplete…
All of a sudden nothing matters anymore; I can't taste the food that I don't want to eat, I can't feel the wind on my face.
I don't know if this is something that you're supposed to feel, but this is only a part of what I feel inside. And then all of a sudden I had all these questions
Who am I going to tease when I have nothing to do?
Who is going to tell me the truth when nobody would?
Who am I going to blackmail when I want something?
Who is going to pick me up when I'm falling?
Who is going to replace you if you're not there to answer my questions?
Will I remember how you look like? Sound like? Or even talk like? Or will I completely forget you ever existed?
Will I ever laugh again?
I feel so alone and I ask myself is this how people feel when someone this close leaves you?
I feel so angry at not getting a chance to say goodbye!
Why do I feel so many emotions at the same time and that they don't make any sense?
Why am I afraid of moving on and living my life?If only you were here you would know the answers.